To My Nanny…

24 Aug 2010 1 Comment

by dirtpaws in Grandparent Poems, Loss, Poetry Tags: grandmother passing poem, grandparent poems, loss of grandmother, Loss Poetry, nanny passing poems, nanny poems

On the 11th anniversary of my Grandmother’s death, and thanks to my mother’s record keeping, I can finally post the original poem I wrote in 1999 when I lost my Nanny, my grandmother, my daughter’s namesake.

I am certain from you passing that I will never be the same.

That all the things you’ve taught me are the ones that must remain.

You laughter and your touch are the things I miss inside

for in your heart I found a place I knew I could survive.

For my life has been a struggle from the lines of shadows walked

and in these past transgressions along with me you’ve walked

and when it seemed that no one, would come and take my hand

you were always faithful to love and understand.

I cannot dream of a love as the one you hold for me

and all the times you’ve wiped away the pains you could not see.

I know it has been your prayers that have kept me from great harm

and when I needed comforting I have always found your arms.

There is a world that will not know you and my children will not see

your compassion and your kindness to all of those in need.

There is a pain so everlasting and a sadness time won’t fill

to the Nanny that can hold me, when there is no one else who will.

There are thousand memories haunting, for the Nanny that was mine

and all the loved ones grieving when they were left behind.

There is a pain so unforgiving, that the last days were not your best

and all the way we miss you and wish we had seen your last breath.

I cannot forget the times I failed you and left you all alone

or the pain my life had caused you at my decisions away from home.

But in the times I hurt you and caused you not to sleep

I knew you would always love me and not turn your back on me.

The world had lost a part of it with your passing on this day.

There is so much that can be told of you, so many things to say.

The heavens are much brighter now for your love is found in few.

And of Grace I can tell, you loved everyone you knew.

11-04-99